This is it

It's happened, I have a diploma that says that I have fulfilled all the requirements for graduation...though my diploma does not specify that I actually HAVE graduated (WTF BREARS) I have hugged and cried with so many people it's causing a headache, and I've promised so many lunch dates and coffee dates that I feel like a coffee date ho. But nonetheless, I am content. I hung out with the grade at a little get-together at a classmate's place. It was fantastic and I'm so glad I went. I feel closer to the grade than I ever have before...so now let's leave (lol)! It's really happened, and there are so many people that I wish I could thank for making my life a fun place to be. But I can't, so I'll just try to show eternal gratitude by making something of myself and visiting often.

For now...untitled

Today I'm graduating from high school.

This is incredibly exciting and yet a little depressing. I will miss a lot of people, and I guess what's even harder is now the stakes are higher, the expectations are higher. This is that mythical REST OF MY LIFE moment that I always said would be like blah blah. Wow. So I have a mac (yes) and I was looking at the dashboard, and I saw something that was very poignant to me. One of the most important teachers I've ever had, who served as the dean for my academic summer program, died two years ago in the autumn of my junior year. I was completely devastated, but as I look at his picture again and read his obituary, I remember that he always wanted me to do my best, to connect to people and be strong. I think I've done most of what he's asked successfully.
And to make him proud would be the best thing.

The Vision of Confusion

So the Graduate made no sense to me other than I felt a connection with D Hoff.

Suddenly I Saw

That Dustin Hoffman in the Graduate and I were the same person except, oops, he gets a girlfriend...

oh wait...and is eons wealthier than i am... with better prospects.

But we feel the same way. Confused, nervous about the future, dumbstruck by the looming possibilities ahead of us. A little too honest for our own good, and managing editors of yearbooks.

(I Can't Get No) Satisfaction

Nothing on this blog is working for me right now. I want the colors to be what I want them to be, I want my font to be as decadent as the 70 degree Fahrenheit weather outside. WTFFFFF. I got into college. That was good news. I should celebrate, but I'm feeling too restless. I think I'll just go watch the Graduate. FRU G:fa
kmfd

ok.

Spring Cleaning

So I've cleaned my room. It looks passable. I've reordered my clothes for the third time in two weeks, and am trying out the third new blog template in two minutes. Nothing satisfies. URGH.

why am i procrastinating practicing for my gig.

because i'm in that mood, aight? NO QUESTIONS

La vida mas calma

Hola mi gente!

Estoy en un viaje a Mexico, y yo paso un tiempo bueno. De veras, Los Cabos (en la península Baja) son bellísimas. Aunque no hay tantas actividades como hay en Nueva York, creo que aqui hay algo mas mejor: tiempo para relajarnos. Y en eso, salgamos bien. vale. Es muy divertido hablar con los mejicanos; creo que yo les confundo a los señores en particular, porque soy exótica. Piensan, <<¿Eres mejicana o eres dominicana?>>

La señora que nos cuida hace lo mejor guacamole (cada día, Dios mío!). Si yo sigo en la manera en que yo como su guacamole, iré a aumentar como un gigante!

OMJESUS

I have a gig! Aspiring songwriter gig! YES YES YES YES YES.

The Lowdown: April 11th, 6 pm. (thats a Sunday)

15 minute set! ALL MY SONGS! WHAT!

THE BITTER END
YIKES YIKES SO EXCITED

and that's how I know that the lord has been blessing me!

Werd man

I never thought that this day would really come. I'm writing my last essay ever for high school. I don't know what to do about this. I have a research essay about Nigerian films. And it's really interesting, but the one page will not be written! URGH

I am 17.

Happy birthday.